Live with it

Women and cats do as they please, men and dogs just need to learn to live with it:)

A Day

A day without sunshine is night.

Blog............

Blog, blog, blog............blah, blah, blah

Thanksgiving.......................

I am thankful that I only have to provide "the goodies" (you know the pies, whipped topping etc) and the home for the stuffing of the faces to take place in.

Really I am thankful that

I go to bed with the same man for 32 years and feel safe.


I have healthy, happy (for the most part) 3 grown children and 5 awesome grandchildren, that always make me smile.

Thanksgiving Eve...................Thankful

I am thankful for the good people in my life.  They know who they are, no reason to name them. I like to keep them close to me and in my heart, they have helped build me into who I am today.
I am thankful for the people in my life that try to hurt me (not in a physical way), they know who they are too.    I stay away from them.  They may try to "get to me" without being in contact with me.  But they are going to fail, they make me stronger.

I miss

I miss............

my Mom and Dad.  I can't put into words how very much I miss them. What they meant to me.  I have so many memories that I carry.

my dogs, Roxie and Andre. Roxie ( the most wonderful boxer that ever lived! ) had a uncanny ability to know if I was feeling blue and knew how to cheer me up or just sit with me and comfort me.  Andre was a little shit with the spirit of a lion. He taught me that it didn't matter how small (he was a 4.2 lb Yorkie)  you are or thought you were, that you can do anything you put your mind to.

looking a old photo albums with Granny Wilma. I loved they stories of her growing up. The way she could remember "the old days", but because of her illness she couldn't tell you what she had for lunch that day.

washing dishes with Wanda after a holiday dinner.  Wanda would wash, I would dry and Wilma would put the dishes away.  We worked together like a well oiled machine.

my horse Tavern, the only living creature on the face of the earth that would listen to me sing!

These things I miss are now memories that live in a safe place, in my heart and mind. 

There are other things that I miss.  There is no reason to be missing them.  I will breathe life back into them and enjoy them.  Someday they will be memories too.

Other Blogs......

I have been reading other people blogs.  It seems like there are quite a few people out there that are giving advise away!  Advise on HOW TO: live your life (oops, I did one of those, sorry it will NOT happen again!), treat other people, pay it forward, listen, and the list goes on and on.  Do these blogs really help anyone that reads them???? Or are they only helping the writer?  Giving the writer a sense of "Wow, I am good!"  "Look what a good person I am!"  "People like what I say"  "People need me to help them", "Live their life for them" "I AM important"  "People need me to tell them what to do"   Puke!!!!  Get a life. 

Words that my Mother used.......

There was a time when I was small that my Mother did not cuss around her children.  She made up her own cuss words.....



"She thinks that she is so mucking fuch!"  = Fucking much
"Why do you do everything so bass ackwards?"  = Ass backwards
"Go back off in your on jackyard!" = Jack off in your own backyard (???not sure about that one??)
"Piss on the Peas." (again??)
"That's one Mell of a hess."

Hold on

Hold on to Gods Hand.  What a powerful message.  Hold on to it with all your might.  Don't let go of it or your faith. Hang on............life is a bumpy ride. 

Uck!!!!!!!

Ok!!!!! Who did it???????   Did one of those little snot nosed...I mean little darlins' that I spend 10 hours of my day with give me this uck that I feel tonight????  Or was it the man I sleep with every night????

Just another manic monday......

Why so Mondays always seem to be "manic Mondays" when children are involved?  Is is because the little darlings have been home all weekend with their parents?  When they come back to me on Mondays it takes half the day just to get them "back." Do their parents feel so bad about not spending time with them that they let them run the show all weekend?  Did parents forget to be parents?  Do parents not know the difference between quality and quanity time? It really doesn't matter to a child how much time you spend with them.  What matters is that you spend time with THEM.  Sitting in the same room texting on your phone while they run wild and climb the walls like a bunch of Monkeys jacked up on Mt. Dew..............no.  Watching tv while they are rolling around on the floor like a Dog with a bad itch............no. Yelling because you were on the phone while the children drew a colorful mural on the living room wall......no.  Maybe parents should grab a book and snuggle up with their child.  Get out the crayons (the ones that are way up high on that shelf) and get creative.  There are so many ways to spend an afternoon with a child................

Worn out

I feel worn out.  Physically and emotionally.  I don't know why.  I know that I am hoping that I made the right choice yesterday.  I think that my heart and my head are have a knock down drag out fight about that choice.  I hope that one wins soon.

Life is going too fast.....time to slow down

It is time to slow down.  Time to stop and think.....time to get back lost relationships that matter.  Time to let the people you love know it!  Say it.....show it.  Time to take care of yourself.  Spend a little time alone.  Time to pay it forward.  Time to be thankful for what you have.  Don't worry about what you don't have.  Are those things really important?  If they are then make them happen.  You can't just sit back and let life happen.  You must go out and make it happen, create it. Life is a one time thing.  There are no "do overs", once we leave the plant.  Leave your mark, leave a memory.  Now is the time to have the "do overs."  Fix mistakes that can be fixed.  Say "I'm sorry" to people you have hurt.  Small things that might not seem important might be important to someone, and you have the chance to make someone feel better.  You get what you give.  Life is hard?? Compared to WHAT???  Life can have difficult moments, days, weeks, hell maybe even months or years! BUT this is your life.  Change it, make it what you want it to be.  It is your life embrace it.

Let me in

Let me in.. .............I will listen to you...............

Communication

To exchange and express thoughts, ideas.....through speech. An exchange between two people. To listen and respond to the other person. Wouldn't it be nice if we all really did communicate like that. We can...........it take a little work, on both sides. Somewhat of a process. But worth it. I need to get better at it. I am willing to do it!!!

courage

This is the art of courage: to see things as they are and still believe that the victory not lies with those who avoid the bad, but those who taste, in living awareness, every drop of the good.  Victoria Lincoln

Enough

I love you. I love you enough to let you go. I love me enough to let you go.

Together

Together we don't have it all together, but together we have it all. This simple little sentence is so true. Most of us don't have it "together" most of the time. However we still have it "all." If we are lucky we still have the one we fell in love with. The one person on the face of the earth that has seen the good, the bad, and the ugly and stayed by their side and loved them no matter what. All we need to do is OPEN our EYES, and OPEN our HEARTS. It IS that simple.

Love it not suppose to hurt

A nine year old boy was as the question, How do you fall in love. His answer was " You get shot by an arrow and after that it is not suppose to hurt." Wouldn't it be wonderful if he was right?

Relationships

You can ruin a relationship by failing to let go of the old and not bringing in the new.

6 Years ago yesterday

Six years ago yesterday (9/28/2004) I had a kidney transplant. I had forgot. I didn't think that is was a big deal. I had both of my kidneys removed and a few weeks later had a transplant, thanks sis! It was easy. Physical pain I deal with very well, sometimes to well. I have a hard time dealing with emotional pain. But I am learning slowly, but surely how to deal.....

Coming out of the dark

My life has been very....stressful...sad...confused...to put it as honest as I can it has been a total mess.
I have had a wonderful life

 It has been filled with joy and sadness, just like yours and everyone who lives on this planet.
We all get up every morning and face what the day brings us.

I have learned over the past few months that I must focus on the great things in my life and see all the wonderful good people and the great things that makes my life good.

It is time for me to be me. Over the past week I have spent many hours looking inside myself. Coming to know what I want.  How I want my life.

We all only have one shot at this.
There are no do-overs, only new starts................


We must love to be loved.
We must forgive to be forgiven.
We must give to be able to accept.

WonderWoman.

I must learn to be Wonder Woman....................TOMORROW!

Shhhh....

I have been up..............doing nothing. I must get my butt off this couch and start my day. It is so peaceful. Seems like a waste not to enjoy the moment:)

Manic Monday

So much to do, so little time. Life is full and busy. That's good. I just want to get everything done. Then I can slow down and relax, do something just for me. I wonder though...does it really matter? Does it matter that my closet is a mess? That my laundry room looks as though a twister went through it?

Sad

Today I learned that a 5 year old boy that I had provide care for him and his younger sister in my childcare was the child that died as a result of a fall. He was playing at one of the local inflatable play places. I hope that the place looks at ways to make their place safer. There are several things that they could do.